January 25, 2016
My sweet daughter.
Today is Mommy's 27th birthday. And we have only six to seven more weeks of waiting for your birth-day. Your Daddy and I are getting more and more excited every day. I've spent almost eight months in this new (forever changed) body of mine and have learned so much. I have never felt so beautiful or so certain of who God has made me to be until I saw my belly getting bigger and felt your soft kicks. As you've grown, so has my heart and I love your Daddy in a way that I never have before. I hope you have his deep eyes, his kind heart, his enduring courage and of course his silly sense of humor.
I've been thinking a lot lately about what it means to be your Mama. I know I don't have it all figured out yet, and that I will learn more once you're in my arms. (I can't wait to hold you!!) As I've been thinking I've wanted to make sure I remember to teach you all that I've learned about beauty through this pregnancy. I think the most important factor of knowing how beautiful you are is knowing WHO you are. Too many times in my life I've tried to be like other people or I've compared myself to other's and it held me back from seeing my own reflection clearly. The world you're about to venture into focuses a lot on this way of becoming like someone else in order to be beautiful. Sometimes the messages that it will bombard you with will make you question whether or not you're good enough or beautiful.
The answer to that question Aria, is and will always be YES.
Mommy has learned this through the journey I've been on. Each step preparing me more than I knew to be your mom. Having this sweet one on one time with you my sweet daughter has helped mommy to know that no one else on the planet can be in this place, this time, and in this beautiful skin other than me.
Your little life growing up inside me is transforming and wonderful. It has reminded me of how I was formed "Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother's womb. I thank you, High God---you're breathtaking! Body and soul, I am marvelously made! I worship in adoration ---what a creation! You know me inside and out, you know every bone in body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, The days of my life all prepared before I'd even lived one day." Psalm 139:14-16.
I have every hope that you my fierce little warrior girl will be able to fight off the lies of this world just like Mommy has, because of our great and strong GOD. Who loves us and see us spotless and perfectly beautiful. He's been with me this whole time and he's with you now. SO SWEET!
Baby girl, I can't wait to meet you and watch you grow. I'm thankful for the privilege it is to be your mama, it's the best gift I could ask for on my birthday. You're so precious and God is already using your little life to bring so much of his presence and healing to others!
Thank you for teaching me about beauty and for adding to my life more than you can imagine or I can describe.
Love you always,